Adventures of the Pink icecreamgirl*

Today it dawned upon me that I could have possibly been slipping back into mild depression without even realising it.
Yes, I knew I wasn’t okay, but it didn’t occur to me that it might have been more than just that.
I also realised that it is possible for me to slip into being depressed without […]

My thoughts, emotions and time are split between multiple areas of my life, more than ever before.. & honestly I don’t know how much more I can take.
How did bonds become so fragile? How did values become so fragile? How did family become so fragile? How did life become so fragile?
Through forgotten convictions
Misplaced affections
I’m losing […]

So I’ve not been updating for a number of reasons. Another season of everything happening at the same time. It’s always the case huh?
Zhan says it’s not a surprise that I’m emotionally tired considering everything that’s been happening. In all honesty, I’m surprised that I’ve been holding out til now.
But really, it isn’t me.. it’s […]

Time’s a really quirky thing, huh?
It crawls when you want it to speed past you.. And it zooms past without you having noticed when you desperately need it to slow down.
The past few months have seen me bugging God to speed time up.
And now, I’m pleading with Him to please please please multiply […]

Please save me; I am very very confused.
Staring at various Unis’ websites is driving me insane!
First of all, it’s the cost that is driving me up the wall. WHY is education so expensive?! Rar!
Just calculating the tuition fees alone stressed me out at 2am last night. Tsk. And this is before I’ve even begun […]

How do you measure what you’re worth?
Are you even able to?
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices […]

Sometimes when we’re doing closing at the stores, Michael Buble’s Home comes on the speakers hung overhead.
Somedays it happens by chance, and I shriek in agreement to the song, that OHMANYESIWANNAGOHOMENOWNOWNOW.
Other days, it gets played on purpose.
Such as when I try rather unsuccessfully, to send a hint out to those who linger around the […]

I know both my journals have had frequent updates recently.. And I also know that generally they’re about nothing much, with not much focus or depth.
Maybe because surface issues are way easier to talk about, without having to feel much.
I’m not that dense haha.
But I’m just not ready to… move on and make the […]

On the way to church today, I gazed out of the window staring in the distance just, thinking.
I came to realise that despite how it’s difficult and we struggle.. and how atypical everything has been, I wouldn’t want things any other way.
Besides, I’ve always had a penchant for things out of the ordinary. […]

It’s only 10.37pm, and I am so exhausted that I fell asleep from Raffles Place all the way to AMK. Like, really, really sleep. =/
Not having enough sleep, and having stress piled on all at one shot at work.. To specially making a trip to town only to go in rounds.. I need rest.
I […]

I really really thank God for the people around, people who release the word of God upon me just when I need it, at the point where I am starting to tumble once more.
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have […]

So Joe came to meet me after I visited the Doctor’s to get an MC, mostly because I just well.. wasn’t quite okay.
There are only 3 people I know who process their thoughts and sort out what’s going on in their heads by talking out loud to people, and realising stuff in the midst […]