Update your links, people!! YAYNESS. :)

Miss Jojo is tempted. (Again!)

This time, she feels like buying a domain. So that’s a fee of approximately $10 a year.

Then there’s hosting. Hellllllooooooooooooo.

Money drop from sky? -.-

I’M HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!! MISS WEE!!!!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU DONE YET! =(

It’s okay, I love youuuu! Hahahahahaha. Can I have a cloo?

Rar.

Hana:
i’m trying to phrase the early bird thing
roar
★ jojo;
put there
early bird gets the worm
you want worms?
worms?
i hate worms
they drive me crazy
crazy?
Hana:
lol
★ jojo;
i was crazy once
they sent me to a home
i died there
then the worms came
worms????
I HATE WORMS
THEY DRIVE ME CRAZY
crazy????
I WAS CRAZY ONCE!
they sent me to a home
i died there
then the worms came
WORMS?????????????
Hana:
WADS UR FREAKING PROB
!!!!!!!!!!
★ jojo;
I HATE WORMS

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA OMGGGGGGG. I just laughed til I teared.

In other news, I am very very sick of Dreamweaver; it’s making me want to edit videos for everything else I have to do. -.-

Surprise surprise, I love surprises. Hana refuses to give me a clue!!!!! Hmpf.

Never mind, I shall hatch a surprise plot with her for the rest of the office!

She’s now speaking like Ms Swan. Well done.

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YAY! :D

On the other side of things, I love my Fuzzy lots and lots and lots.
Thanks for the song, for making me smile, for making me melt. :)

Yes, I knew I wasn’t okay, but it didn’t occur to me that it might have been more than just that.

I also realised that it is possible for me to slip into being depressed without me or the people closest to me knowing, that when they say you can feel alone even in a crowd - that’s when it starts.

It also dawned upon me that it will happen if I do not speak up, if I keep bottling up. But I also know that I do that because I don’t want to bother the busy, and that I don’t want to stress the far away.
Or perhaps I retreat into an anti-social shell that doesn’t want to go out in groups.

When this happens, I know and feel that I’m far away from so many, but yet I refuse to go out and spend time together because I want time alone. Also because I don’t feel like being all happy and chirpy, the way you should be in a group so as not to pull the moods of everyone down with you.

So I refuse to meet up in groups and I am ultra selective of who I talk to and who I meet.
(So yes, the few of you can begin feeling honoured right about now, hahaha)

Crying until I hyperventilate hasn’t happened in awhile, but I’m grateful for the release. I’m grateful for being able to sob out loud.
And for the unconditional love that allows me to say, “I’ve been upset with you for the past few weeks because…..” and knowing for certain that it will not hurt our relationship but on the contrary, pull everything back closer.

Oh God just come and heal the open wounds.. because right now they just hurt. I don’t know how such careless words can hurt so much, but God please just come and mend broken bridges, broken hearts.

God as I struggle to pull back closer to You, as I turn to You and leave everything at the cross, won’t you take my life and make it a testimony? Won’t you take me as a living sacrifice, won’t you prosper me, won’t you reveal your plans, won’t you sort all the areas of my life out for me?

I am your very happy sounding friend! HAHAHA.

Ok fine, maybe not in the past week or so.. But still.

Sigh sigh, no I don’t know what’s wrong with me. But for someone who just has to put everything into words, I hate not knowing.

Maybe I do, but don’t want to know.

Perhaps it’s all the lil things that add up.

Or that I don’t speak up directly when people upset me. Or hurt.

Some days I hate being such a quality time person.

Make my tomorrow. My tomorrows.
:(

Like aircons & hotels.

And Famous Amos stores!

And lovely shampoo smells.. like the Herbal Essences one I’ve been using for ages. And like the new Elseve one I just got. I keep opening the bottle to sniff! Hahahah!

Oh and the passion fruit goodness from Body Shop makes me very happy when my entire house smells of it after I shower!

Hehehe.

Am in a general state of misery. Have been since last night, actually. I burnt my tongue last night drinking soup from a steamboat. Pity I wasn’t too hungry; the soup was so sweet.

Sigh…

Stayed home today because I couldn’t get out of bed.. Literally. I was so dizzy, everything was swirling around.

Sadly, I still feel like that but I’ve to go back into office tomorrow. Sigh.

I hate being sick and alone.. That meant having to bring myself to the doctor and back. :((

Not sick per se.. no flu / fever / cold, none of the usual things that come with being sick.. I just feel unwell. Sigh.

Maybe the lack of sleep has finally caught up on me, and now I’m just moping around hoping the sick feeling will go away.

I need more things to look forward to, instead of an abyss of uncertainty and awesome maybes. Can’t the maybes be more concrete?
Thinking about it makes me want to cry… But that could just be the general state of misery talking.

Exceptionally whiny these days, so do stay away for your sanity’s sake. This is one of those times when my own whining manages to piss me off. Scoff.. My own whining can annoy me.

How does one feel dizzy AND have a headache at the same time? That’s just wrong. My head’s going to explode I swear.

Add nausea and chest pains and difficulty breathing to that equation and you’ll have an idea of what I feel like.. Physically, anyway.

I want goodnight hugs. :((

When, God… when? I’m doing my best to be as patient as I can be.. Rar.

imu :(

I never thought that they’d mean everything to me.